the recent release of the A levels results got me thinking again. whether things would have been different if i had been able to pluck up the courage to switch to Arts Fac after one year, which basically means repeating J1. and when i've gotten my results, i was in a different dilemma all over again. whether or not i should retake As, go poly, wait for another year before applying again etc. yepyep. all these unnecessary thoughts. many of my friends are reapplying for the three local unis again. some of them waited for one year ( i always wonder why i don't have the courage to be different from others.).. some are already in some private institutions.. so i wonder what will their next step be if they manage to secure a place. guess they'll be stuck in yet another dilemma.

and amidst all these, i saw a relevant article in the chinese papers today. one of my primary school friend's in the article! and it was really shocking to know that he's been diagnosed with cancer when he was Sec4.. and because of the illness, he repeated jc1.. and even so, he managed to score 3As and 2Bs for the A levels.. and we actually just met a few months ago during my primary 3 class reunion! nobody mentioned bout it. nobody knew. the only thing that we talked bout was how he had become good-looking. ha suddenly felt so ashamed of myself.. a healthy person thinking bout meaningless stuff and not putting in enough effort.. for God, for studies, for everything! im sure many of us have read this kinda stories before.. but cos he's someone i personally know, the story's all the more impactful.. feel really really glad that his condition's under control now.. and i really really feel the urge to put in my BEST in everything i do now. yup.

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anyway i have been having fun! hahahaha. as if exams are over! but i've planned my study timetable already. and it's effectively gonna start next monday. oh maaaaan, i dread. but NO, I MUST PUT IN MY BEST. on friday, i went shopping with Pei and Bao.. RAWR. i shall not mention anything bout it. and the next day, i went for cell at church, then went Partyworld with my sis and her bf! wheeeee~ what a bright bulb! :p Cell without Cam around wasnt that bad after all.. like what she said, i have to make more friends cos she won't be there every week. felt v glad that people care to include me into conversations. yepyep. they are all nice ppl! wheee~ will be having OG outing tmr! ice-skating! haha. then the next day will be having lunch with some cell ppl and then meeting qm and hm.. :D thurs will be having esprimere exco handover.. and fri, revision lecture commences! BOOOS. will still be seeing sy on saturday though. haha. what an eventful week! (: